canon eos 450D is officially mine :D

Mood: Euphoric

Listening to: my inner voice telling me to go to bed.

Watching: some random simpsons ep.

 

i finaly got the chance to buy that camera ive been craving for for the last 7 months or so…
and ive even taken a couple of pictures that i feel the need to upload to DA too
only thing is; my comp is in bergen, and ive been working so much lately, and will keep doing for the next month, so i barely have time to sit down in front of any computer -borrowed or othervise anyway.

i also got a letter from the university i applied to earlier this year this weekend. i was excepted in the class that was my first choice there (litterature).

i also got a confirmation message from that art school (photostudies) i had applied too. i got in, there too.

needless to say, i had a lot of thoughts roaming through my mind the few hours i let myself think about it. accepted at uni… ive dreamt about that since i was fourteen-fifteen years old. ive always wanted a good education, and university… thats high up there!
and with everything ive been through since i was fourteen, you can imagine how big that was for me to have accomplished that. to have been accepted at uni.. and whats more - in the field i had as my top priority.

but ive known for the last couple of years, that that have turned into a backup plan.
even as great as it is….
i mean, im freakkin proud i managed to get that acceptance, but theres a reason why ive really wanted that camera.

i need to create my own work, not read about, and become an expert in someone elses accomplishments.

so….i guess you know what school i picked

have a great night
i need to go sleep, so that ill be awake enough to work my ass off in the morning,day,afternoon and night… ive grown tired and exhausted (a hefty virusinfection and blocked sinuses will do that to you…), but theres only one month left, and ill be free… and then ill be able to afford those lenses i want so bad

love you

only one month left…

untill i move down to bergen.

in all honesty, i am looking forward to it, too.

my bro and i went to bergen friday night, -partly to visit mom, partly for me to get the key and sign the final contract for my flat,and leave my stuff locked in there. but people were hard to get a hold on, and i didnt even get my key or anything. well,  i did get to see mom, though so we stayed there a few hours longer than initially planed, and ended up leaving my stuff there instead. she and her guy had a spare room that i could put my boxes and dvd-rack in, so it went alright it kinda sucked though, that i didnt get to go to my flat, as i have been paying for it for two months already… but phones are phones, and everyone arent the best at taking them, or reading messages and stuff, so…

but when i move in at mid-august, there shouldnt be any problems

i hope.

ive had a cold for the last week, too. sucked big time, as we vere having problems at work as it was, with one of our people having sickleave after a fall during a hiking trip last sunday. the temperature at work is at the level where my virus are thriving and going crazy of happyness, and reproduse like there was no tomorrow. so off to the doctors i went, at thursday. i was told to stay away from work untill tuesday this comming week, but no can do, as i have to work due to us being to few. i did get time off on both thursday and friday though, so it helped a little. but had i know there was no chance for me to go to my flat, i wouldnt have went to bergen, but stayed at home getting better instead.

but i guess i have to keep popping those pills, and use that nosespray for the next month, for as long as i will have to return to work and that retched temperature, i wont get any better,but worse instead. i just hope i wont get anyone else sick.

i will get two days off this week, though so atleast i can sleep and relax then. but my doctor told me to get back to her on tuesday if i havent gotten well again, and im thinking  about doing that. maybe shell be able to give me some medicine that could help  

ive only got 14 workdays left, too…..

that will be strange. oh so good, but strange. and sad because then i will have to say goodbye to the girls at work, and i will miss them so much

but it will be really good to start school.  now ive even signed up on facebook, so that it will be easier to keep in touch with the people i leave, and the people i will start going to class with. that, and the continuous haggle of ’pleeeeeaaaaase get on facebook, it will be so much easier to stay in touch with you!’ from some of my friends, are the ONLY reasons as to why i signed on. other than that, i have nothing to do there, and will not have anything else to do there…i still have that outlook on the site. simple as that and now that its summer, and ive been bored to tears today, i have found that facebook is a tad fun. but only because im able to send some of my friends messages. everyone else are away at holidays, where they have no connection for their cellphones, and my comp is standing in my mothers spare room, so ihave nothing else to do, or noone else to talk to. so yeah, facebook is…ok. im still reluctant to let everyone ive ever known to get the knowledge that im there, though. theres a reason why people are in my past. if we still had something to talk about, one of us  would have called the other up, using the yellow pages or something

 

e.a. and i went to the movies last week, and saw prince caspian

it was awsome to go to the cinema again, -ive always loved that feel and the movie was pretty cool too -better than the first one the actors acting… will get better in time, i hope for their sakes, but considering theyve just started their carerres, its not ’ed spielers’  bad

and i must say: i loved caspians speach… you know in all those big, knight/fantacy movies they always have that one speach at the end, as the battle really takes off? yeah, that one

i was afraid i would be laughing involounterely, but i was positively surpriced all he said, was ‘Narnians…….FIGHT!!!’   wicked thats a classic, right there!!!!

 king leonidas and king arthur, youve got something to learn…   

 

i have to go now, but i hope it wont take as long as it has done to talk to you guys again

see you soon

i killed it… and presenting beyond despair :)

i killed shadowrockin’ for good last night.

as some of you may or may not know, its been closed for everyone esle but me for a week or something now, as i tried to figure out if i wanted to close it for good or just keep it. i decided on the first. lack of time is a true killer…

it was awsome, wicked and fun while it lasted though, and for those of you that visited the site while it was there, i just want to thank you for everything it was really great to read some of your messages at times, and ive gotten to know of some new bands and music that i hadnt even heard of before -for that i am truly grateful it was great fun to have you guys there with me and thank you so much

im of to take some photographs… ive got some ideas i just have to see come to life during the day, as the light and rignt about everything is perfect. im going to work in a couple of hours aswell, so im going to get a few things done today

i leave you now with the interview i did with the up and comming band Beyond Despair for shadowrockin a while back -in december of 2007, i think :)   -again, and i cant stress this enough: thank you so much to the band themselves, that took the time to log on to their msn with me, and do this

enjoy!! -and remember to check out their myspace

 (copied from the now defunkt shadowrockin.blogspot.com)

Presenting : Beyond Despair.

 

 

• Frozenpoetry: Tell me a little about yourselves. What instruments do you play, who writes the music and who writes the lyrics?
• I’m Jaime, I play keyboards and sing sometimes. I usually write the music.
• I’m Jeni, I do all female vocals and write most of the lyrics.
• I’m Joe, I play bass and joint vocalist.
• Frozenpoetry: You’re a pretty new band for most of us, but how long have you been playing together?
• Jaime: The band started nearly two years ago I think.
• Joe: Well, Jaime and I have known each other for a while. Also we have another band that we both play in.
• Jaime:Yea, we met through this band actually ha ha ha!
• Jeni: There was a guy I knew about the time the band was formed, who said he and his other bandmates (Joe and Jaime) were interested in having me singing with them and I said ok. So I think we’re all what you could call ‘original members’.
• Joe: Lol aye.
• Frozenpoetry: Is there a special meaning or story behind your bandname?
• Jaime: This one’s down to you Joe…
• Joe: Um… well, me and a friend were depressed… and had no life or girlfriends etc etc etc. Life was shit. We had constantly been listening to such bands as My Dying Bride, Draconian, Katatonia and D’espairsray. We thought it would be a good idea to form a band that encorportated what we felt at the time with the music we were really interested in at the time. However, life got better and we found Jaime and he (my friend) left but still have that desire for dark metal. With infulences like Draconian and having a female vocalist we thought it added something unique to the music. This is when we recruited Jeni ^_^, and she’s been great and writing lots of lyrics.
• Frozenpoetry : Well, it is a very powerful and emotive bandname, at the same time it seems like its very hopeful in a sence, like there’s something beyond those initial feelings.
• Joe: There’s always something beyond what you feel if it is something very down. Almost like a light at the end of the tunnel.
• Frozenpoetry : And yeah, I’ve seen some of her lyrics I think, or a tleast some of the things she writes :). Are there some special themes you like to stay true to, or does it change with every other song? Like with some bands, they write fantasy based lyrics for all their music, while others are more political and so on…
• Joe: Over to you Jeni m’dear.
• Jeni: My lyrics usually tell a story of being betrayed by someone you love and trust deeply. It’s something everyone has been a victim of so they can all relate to it, in some small way. But I like to think it’s not all in a depressing manner. There is always hope so with some of them certainly I’ve tried to show that it doesn’t always leave you feeling dead, but can make you a stronger person. It’s usually based on my own personal experiences as well.
• Jaime: Musically though, there isn’t really any specific theme, though I try to keep a similar feel through it.
• Joe: Yeah, I totally agree.
• Jaime: Like Jeni said, the songs are something that everyone can relate to, I can only speak for myself with this, but I’m not keen on political or religions themes, they only have a specific target.
• Joe : That is the initial idea. To create music people can relate to - much like My Dying Bride etc.
• Jaime: We’re not trying to reinvent the wheel or anything, but we don’t want to just jump on the bandwagon.
• Jeni: That’s probably the best way to put it.
• Jaime: Yea, if someone listens to us, I’d like them to say straight away “Oh, that’s Beyond Despair” instead of rattling off 5 or 6 other bands ha ha ha!
• Joe: I agree.
• Frozenpoetry: I know that most writers and musicians hate to limit their art through calling it this or that. So just to make it easier for those who prefer to put everything in their own neat little box when it commes to genres: How would you describe your music?
• Jaime: It’s.. metal! Ha ha ha!
• Frozenpoetry: That’s a pretty wide description ;).
• Jaime: Yes, but to be truthful that’s probably the only accurate one, which is still at a push. We have a lot of different things going on, like death metal, gothic stuff, prog, even jazz at times - and sometimes sort of folky, and doom, can’t forget that one ^_^;;
• Frozenpoetry: Yeah, and still it’s like there’s this wonderful continuance in it all, that tells us that you’re the guys behind it.
• Jaime: Yea, we have our own little sub genre “Progressive Gothic Doomdeath”!
• Frozenpoetry: Lovely :D.
• Joe: Lmao – amazing!
• Jeni: I guess it fits…
• Jaime: What’s sad is the fact that it’s true.
• Frozenpoetry : Yeah, it all does fit well together in a strange, but great way :). Which bands or artists do you listen to yourselves?
• Jaime: Here we go!
• Jeni: Here comes a list to take you to christmas XD!
• Joe: Lmao!
• Jeni: No, I’ll keep it limited to the most inspiring…
• Frozenpoetry: Like your top five, or something.
• Jaime: Each.
• Joe : I have no order cause i don’t have favourite bands tbh. But meh… I would have to say… Ensiferum, Draconian, X-Japan, Gackt…
• Jaime: Gackt XD!
• Joe: You shut it!
• Jeni: Katatonia, D’espairsRay, Nightwish, Emilie Autumn, Swallow the Sun - Gackt is good but he’s not one of my favourites.
• Joe : Ensiferum, X-Japan, Dream Theater, Draconian, Gackt for me.
• Jaime: I suppose the bands that influence me for BD, amongst some that have been mentioned, are Novembre, Arcturus, Insomnium, Eternal Tears of Sorrow, Yearning, Swallow the Sun and Akira Yamaoka.
• Joe: Yeah, there’s too many lol.
• Jaime: Indeed ha ha ha - but limited, I’d say those
• . Joe: Akira Yamaoka is a general huge influence on the music though.
• Frozenpoetry: What inspires you the most when you write?
• Jaime: Well the music doesn’t really have much inspiration, I just sit down in front of my keyboards with paper and a pencil and play, just noting things down as I go along. when I come up with something I try to expand on it, work out the guitars, bass, drums etc.
• Frozenpoetry: Do you have a system? Like, do you write for the keyboards first, then drums, then bass, then guitars and so on? Jaime:That depends, if I come up with something I might go “Hmm… how’d this work on that?” so it’s more getting the music down first, then decideing who does what later.
• Frozenpoetry:How do you write most of your songs? Do you just sit around and jam together, or do you write more on your own and then bring it to the table later? - I know you said you just sat down with pen and paper though xD
• Jaime: Ha ha ha! But yea, usually I do the music and let the others hear it and they tell me what they think, or Jeni’ll give me lyrics and I’ll try to work around them.Joe: Yeah.
• Jeni: I prefer having my lyrics written out first. It can be quite difficult to try and write lyrics for the music that has been written already.
• Jaime: Which is a bit of a bugger, as I usually do music first and try to fit in lyrics around it ha ha!
• Frozenpoetry:Lol ; ). What do you feel its the most crucial when creating a briliant song - a fantastic melody or some amazing lyrics? Or is it only the combination that can bring each to its rightful strength, and make a listener fall in love with the song?
• Jaime: Both really.
• Joe: Definitely. A bit of both.
• Jeni: It can’t be down to one part of the song alone to make it good.Jaime:You can have a great song, but make it even better with the right lyrics, the reverse is also true.Joe: Yeah.
• Jaime: Unless it’s an instrumental!Jeni: If it’s an instrumental then its a different story, so the music does have to be perfect.Jaime:Indeed.Joe: Yeah.
• Frozenpoetry: Yeah, making it better with great lyrics or the right music – that’s true about a lot of songs. do you have a fave song by another artist or band where you feel that changing either the melody or the lyrics takes away from it, and makes it worse?
• Jaime:Hmm… probably two of my favourite songs would fall into that, Come Pierrot by Novembre and Like A Leaf by Lake of Tears.Joe: Good songs.
• Jaime:Separately, each part is good, but together they’re amazing.Joe: One of my favourite songs is Art of Life by X Japan, and if the melody is taken out then it would would be a huge loss.
• Jeni:My favourite songs are generally my favourite songs because melodies and lyrics fit together. When it’s changed, it falls apart and doesnt make sense to me anymore. I know it’s not quite the same, but take the original Marry of the Blood and the remix of it. It’s like wtf happened to it?Frozenpoetry: Outch! Few remixes are any good at all.
• Frozenpoetry: I know you’re working on your first EP right now - that must be so exciting :D! When will it be released?
• Jaime:We’re hoping in the Spring of next year - God, that sounds familiar <_<; the EP will be 2 years overdue by then!Joe: Yeah. Blame one of our past members.
• Jeni: It’s not something that can be helped though - he (the past member) stirred up a lot when he left and then trying to find new members and then him trying to worm his way back in just messed things up again. Hopefully now though we won’t have as many distractions.Jaime: Not entirely, we just didn’t have enough songs then.Joe: That’s true but still, he did delay it a lot.
•  
• Jeni: But all of that with him messed us up as well.
• Jaime: I guess, but it is true, things did slow down drastically at the tail end of summer last year, then he left.
• Frozenpoetry: Next spring? Something for everyone that can’t stand those ‘Ketchup Song’ and ‘Macarena’ like pests then ;). But two years overdue… that’s a lot!
•  Did you write a lot of songs for the EP before you chose the songs? How did you chose between your songs ? Was there a particular song that you wish would have made the cut too?
• Jeni:I would like to see Wintersmith in there somewhere =p. It’s the first song I wrote for the band but with the chosen songs, it just doesn’t fit in.Jaime: No, it’s going to be on the next one though.Jeni: I know.
• Jaime: As for the number of songs, I ended up with about 20 to 30 half finished pieces that I couldn’t get to work. Hopefully the next one (ep) won’t take as long!Joe: Lol.
• Frozenpoetry: What was the first ever song written for Beyond Despair? Is it on there?
• Joe: Black death metal song - 42!!! (I think)
• Jaime: Ha ha ha! Good God XD!
• Joe: Which had no name.
• Jaime:That was the first finished one.
• Joe: Yes, we recorded it remember?
• frozenpoetry:That’s pretty cool.
• Jeni: A lot of the  demos seemed to have a number in the title =p.
• Jaime: But we had Crushed Under Failing Wings done last March. Well, written.
• Frozenpoetry: Wow, that one is so great!
• Jaime: Thank you ^_^. Hopefully the proper recording’ll make it sound half decent.
• Frozenpoetry: Deaden the Sun is slightly more incredible though, and I can’t wait to hear it when its done :).
• Jaime: That one will probably be the first to be recorded, lyrics pending, as it’s the easiest to do.
• Frozenpoetry: Have you thought about a title for the EP yet?
• Jaime: sort of, actually
• Frozenpoetry: So it won’t be a self-titled one?
• Jaime: There’s one of the songs that we’re not sure of the title yet, but I was saying to Jeni about maybe calling it “Shattering Glass” or something, to reflect the cover more. It could be self titled, and probably will ha ha ha! But I’d like to have something relating to the picture regardless.
• Joe: Yeah, same. That sounds like a good idea.
• Frozenpoetry: Yah, I love the artwork for the cover. Who made it?
•  Joe: a friend of a friend who works as a artist.
• Frozenpoetry: Do any of you have a fave track?
• Jaime: Hmm… that’s tricky ha ha ha!
• Jeni: We shouldn’t really have favourites out of our own work, but I do like Deaden the Sun. I have a feeling it could well become a classic BD track.
• Frozenpoetry: Yeah, as someone from the outside, I have to admit I feel it really sets a great tone.But then again, I haven’t heard most of your work.
• Jaime: I agree, but I can’t really say “Oh this track is amazing!” as I wrote them, it’d be kind of bigheaded I feel.And true ha ha ha, obviously I think they’re good enough to use though.
• Joe: I can’t choose lol.
• Frozenpoetry: Pfth the tracks ARE amazing, and you have to own up to that :). It’s not bigheaded.
• Jaime: Even so, I just can’t admit to it lol,
• Joe: I love Deaden the Sun and Crushed Under Failing Wings.
• Frozenpoetry: It must be hard to choose between your own work.
• Jaime: Yes, but as I said earlier, I do think that they are all good, as I believe that they reflect my ability to write songs. So if I thought they were bad I wouldn’t use them.
• Frozenpoetry: True :). Where can we get the EP when its released? Will you make a deal with some record stores in Glasgow, or sell it from your site?
• Jaime: I’d imagine we’d set up some Paypal thing, either that or people can ask us for them! Probably take a few to sell at our other bands’ gigs as well.
• Joe: Yeah, that would be the best idea.
• Jaime: There isn’t a large market for demos that stores pick up on. It’s kind of sad, but the scene here is mostly people going to see their friends’ bands.
• Joe: That’s true. A lot of people over here don’t go to unsigned gigs to see the local talent. Well not many… I know a few that do though.
• Frozenpoetry: I know, but just asking them if they could have ten demos lying on the counter in case people wanted to check them out - I think that would be ok for some stores.
• Joe: It would have to be a small record shop though.
• Frozenpoetry: Yeah, probably.
• Jaime: It is a shame, as there are a fair few good bands in glasgow.
• Joe: Places like Avalanche in glasgow have an unsigned section.
• Frozenpoetry: They do? That’s wonderful!
• Joe: Yes.
• Frozenpoetry: You’re an unsigned band as of right now, but do you have any ambitions when it comes to getting signed? Are you thinking about major labels, or would you rather create your own label and do it indie style? Have you thought about how far you want to take Beyond Despair yet?
• Jaime: At the moment we’re keeping it to a studio basis, for a number of reasons. But I wouldn’t mind getting signed, especially to something like Candlelight.
• Joe: Yeah, Candlelight would be incredible!
• Frozenpoetry: Do you have your own little studio together with some friends, or are you recording in a bigger studio?
• Jaime: The way we’re sort of working is that I do the drums and some of the keyboards at home, and the guitarist, Staresy will record the rest. So it’s not a big huge set up, more like a home studio sort of thing ^_^.
• Frozenpoetry: Sweet.
• Frozenpoetry: These days everyone is discussing just how much the internet and illegal downloads are ruining it all for bands and artists. What do you think about it? Do you think that it all gives smaller, new bands and upcoming artists fewer chances if any at all, or do you feel that it might give some people some chances they would never have without it?
• Jaime: There are good points and bad points, some bands do lose money, but some would’ve never have been heard without it.
• Joe: Well, things like Myspace are a great way to promote your music, but there are good points to illegal downloading because it lets the user hear some songs by bands, then the majority of them go out and buy the CD.
• Frozenpoetry: That’s true.
• Jaime: Yea, I usually download a track or two of a band I’m interested in, and buy the CD if I like it.
• Frozenpoetry: Yeah, it’s a great way to deside what records one wants to buy.
• Jeni: I can’t really say I’m against it, as I have downloaded a couple of albums and songs, but it is a good way to get a band name out there.
• Frozenpoetry: That’s true, too.
• Frozenpoetry: I have shared some words with a couple of you over the net on short occasions, and you always seem so friendly and are always talking to and about each other with so much regard and respect. It seems like you’re a pretty tight group. What is the secret - other than friendship?
• Jaime: Well, between Jeni and Joe… ;).
•  Jeni: Hey, we keep it clean!
• Frozenpoetry: Don’t let us go there…
• Joe : :).
• Jeni: No.
• Jaime: I said nothing~ ^_^.
• Jeni: Course not ¬_¬.
• Joe: We all share the same music insterest which is always a good push in the right direction.
• Jeni: I don’t think there is any real secret to it all. We talk to each other regularly, we’re good friends and there’s all the trust and respect and that’s really it.
• Frozenpoetry:
• Jaime: Yea, that and we do share a fair few interests other than music.
• Frozenpoetry: Do you have any gigs coming up? What are your plans for the band the next months before the release?
• Joe: Not a lot, it’s best to get together and record/practice.
• Jaime: For BD, no, as I said we’re planning on staying in the studio. Though if we had a drummer, the situation may change, but even at that we all are fairly busy.
• Joe: Yeah.
• Frozenpoetry: Yeah, sounds wise to take it easy and give it time to evolve, instead of forcing it forward, too.
• Jaime: Yea, which is probably why it’s taken so long!
• Joe: Yes, it usually ends in failure.
• Frozenpoetry: True… on the usually ends in failure bit.
• Jaime: Yea, you just have to let it flow.
• Frozenpoetry: Which sites could people go to to hear samples of your music?
• Jaime: Myspace? Maybe Soundclick once we get the EP done.
• Frozenpoetry: I know that some of you are playing in other bands as well, like you mentioned earlier. Tell me a little bit about them.
• Jaime: Ho boy… ha ha ha! Joe, start with AGB!
• Joe: Lmao! Ok.
• Frozenpoetry: Time for some self promotion!
• Joe: Alba gu Bráth is Jaime and I’s other band which is a battle/folk metal band that concentrates on Scotland and our history in battles etc.
• Frozenpoetry: Awesomeness :D!
• Joe: www.myspace.com/albagubrathmusic is the Myspace, and we have 2 songs up. Gigs are coming soon in Scotland and hopefully more songs recorded in the future.
• Joe: BE!
• Jaime: Ha ha ha, my go then! Burning Earth is another one of those bands that are kinda difficult to describe properly, and I play keys in them ^_^.
• Joe: Prog power melodic death .
• Jaime: Something like that. We’ve just released an ep, “Chronicles of The Calling”, and our next gig is in January.
• Jeni: Burning Earth is a pretty decent live band as well… from what I saw a while ago. I only saw about half the set though > <.
• Frozenpoetry: Ah, cool :). Well, you’re pretty good at finding titles and bandnames.
• Joe: Thanks a lot!
• Jaime: But I suppose if you take into consideration the rest of the members’ history, it’s kinda of a Glasgow supergroup ha ha ha!
• Frozenpoetry:
• Joe: That’s true.
•  Jaime:Oh aye, the myspace is www.myspace.com/onceburningearth. Then I have a few side project things lol.
• Jeni: Speedyjx XD.
• Jaime: Yea, that for one XD.
• Joe: Moon Balloons lol.
• Jeni: I think it’s the only one i’ve heard it’s all good though. Dying Clouds <33
• Jaime: But yea, I do too many things >_>.
• Frozenpoetry: Dancing in Etheral Skies :D. Are there some other somewhat unknown bands you think people should check out?
• Joe: Yes!
• Jaime: Maelstrom for a start.
• Joe: Ya music wizard. You’re doing Maelstrom now? Wtf?
• Jaime: No no! Who people should check out! But aye, Maelstrom, and I have a friend from Austrailia who has a project called Flood of Rain which is worth checking out.
• Joe: Beyond the Forest are another excellent femme metal band from Glasgow.
• Frozenpoetry:Awesome :D.
• jaime: Atrox!
• Joe: Shouting random bands now are we? Galneryus! lol
• Jaime:Atrox are norwegian, but they own XD! Yes ha ha ha ha!
• Joe: What’s with the but?! Norwegian music pwns!
• Frozenpoetry:….Norwegian , BUT they own?! Hey!
• Joe: Damn right!
• Jaime:Well as opposed to being Scottish or what ever.
• Jeni: If we’re shouting random bands then Mael Mordha.
• Jaime: Yearning, who I mentioned earlier, as well.
• Jeni: Mind you… going to see Mael Mordha can leave you with a sore neck and head the next day!
• Jaime: Really? not bad!
• Frozenpoetry: well, thanks for taking the time, guys you were so good at this!
• Jeni: No worries :). This has been amazing and you were awesome too :).
• Joe: Definitely!
• Jaime: Aye, cheers!

gah, its so warm…!!!

its so hot here, i swear im going to go balistic if the weather doesent change for atleast a couple of days soon. soon as in an hour…
its been mad at work this week, i had to work extra, and because of the way too warm weather were experiencing at the moment, my temper has definately changed… im huffin’, puffin’ and giving people not-so-nice glares every now and then, and that doesent exactly go with the jobdescription, so
besides, as much as i love it to be summer and nice weather here, its gotten too hot over the last couple of years… but then again im one of those who wouldnt go to hawaii or egypt unless i got paid to do so…. looking at pictures, it looks gorgeous, and it would be amazing to see both countries, but im under the impression that it would be well over 30 degrees celsius there whenever the weather is nice, especially during summer. and i cant stand degrees over 27 celsius, without going mad every five minutes, so…. and that damned skin of mine is so frekkin’ fair, that i cant stay in the sun for 20 minutes without getting burned…

i have to work extra on thuesday, too… so this upcomming week ill be working every single day, from early morning to late night…. and i, who was looking forward to my day off on that thuesday…. oh well… ill force that smile back into place, and remember that it means i will get a bigger paycheck next month…

and a poor wannabe-photographer with a ton of ideas she wants to see realized, that is good news on any day

ive had another  idea roaming around in my head for a couple of weeks now… actually im writing it down as we speak, in my little notebook i love the brothers grimm’s stories, and lets just put it this way : the photograps in the series (because it will be a tiny series when finalized :)  ) will be heavily inspired by one of my favorite grimm tale slightly rewritten to suit the concept, but everyone will know where its taken from :)  (…hmmm…that seems to be going around lately… for one of the pieces i had to send the school with my application, i used inspiration from by ’snow white’, which is another one of my fave grimm tales :)  )

i hope i will get to take those photographs sometimes during the next six months… it would be pretty awsome to have them finalized by the start of next year

- or maybe at the start of next summer….

hey….i just got another idea im not telling you more about it yet, but it will be awsome

ah, well… in two weeks time my brother and i will be moving my things to my dorm, if everything goes as planned. that marks a new beginning for me in a way, i guess… then it will only be a month of the summer ‘holiday’ left, before i will move down to bergen myself for two years (to begin with ;). well see what happens… but i might stay there longer if i manage to build myself a network there, and get a job working for/with a photographer in his/her studio or ill just work somewhere for a couple of years, paying for some of my loan and save up money, and go to england for a last schoolyear, to finalize my bachelor  degree

good stuff are happening these days. finaly and in all honesty, i think i deserve some of it too and it was about time…

whats more, ive been deemed healthy again. - in the sense that im not considered mentaly ill anymore. i havent been this well since… before i was six. before all of this shit started. before i can even remember. and it feels different than before, it feels good -it feels great. and it feels right. can i finaly start living my life now, please? and not be stuck between trying to be something i think everyone else would like me to be, and what my own sickness would let me be.

i can? thank you.

 

i promised you a long post a week back, and i guess this is it

lets make it even longer

we need a little recap of what ive been up to the last months, dont we…

ok. yall know how addicted im to my camera, so lets add some pretty illustrations

now, i started with taking some pictures to send the school i will be attending and study photograpy at. that went incredibly well, with some serious help from one of my friends

i wanted to give her a present after all that hard work and help, but had no idea as to what
but getting the letter from school telling me that they really wanted me to come study there, based of the pictures theyd gotten to see, i decided to go for a shot i took of her while we were getting ready to take one of the other planed pitures. i fell in love with the photograp at once when id taken it, and i should probably have sent it in as one of the portrait works, with its tiny,but apparant photoshopped change keeping it out of the ‘blue’ category (they werent allowed to be photoshopped, where as the portraits was :)  ). it really looks great, and it looks so…. her awwwww, shes such a pretty little girl   so i messed the image up a bit,trying to make it look cool, (ending up feeling suprised id actually managed to make it look so great, before going into full proud-of-my-own-work mode  ) bought a cool frame, and voila! :D  wicked present coming through

 

i kept studying hard for my exam…. may came, and i took said exam

i went to bergen again, for a dorm-hunt this time,  and we all know how well that went

me? ive been a happy camper knowing that there is a key and a door down in bergen waiting for me, with my name on it. my bank account, however,(who even got a bit of help from dad -thanks dad! ) are still mourning the loss of the money i have to pay for it this summer, while im still living and working here xD

the day before i went to bergen, i got a call telling me id gotten the job id applied for which was great but that also meant that i would have to take the buss to work, and at times i had to wait for an hour or so before my workday started because of how the busses comes and goes here but its all good heres the little park i spent that time in during the weeks the weather was so nice in june. you might recognice it from some photographs i took last year, and posted up on deviantart and, lets not forget… what i was doing while waiting reading (about photography, of course ), and listening to music theive changed the park, though…. as theire renovating some of its surroundings, theyve made half of it into a small parkinglot i just hope they change it back into itself when theire done…

im a girl. i think weve established that before, but just saying 

ive never been one of those that runs around with their whole life in their big ass purse or bag, though. that kinda changed once i got my job…. and though its not my whole life in there, theres some essential things in there, that every girl needs or use everyday. so…yeah    

biscuits,water,ipod,lipbalm,cellphone,valet,hairband… and my cam, but i was using that, so

other things ive done other than working,sleeping and occationaly reading and eating? 

oh yeah….taking pictures

 

its probably time for me to go now but noone can say that i made a short post today

i had to give up writing at a point though, because a storm went right over us. so i got that change in weather i wanted but i had to sign off my computer, so.. now its nighttime here, instead of the late afternoon. that have nothing to say to you,but anyway, im just rambling on

see you later

Frozenpoetry